Nice Day Outside With A Power Struggle Inside

Max was supposed to go to temporary day care today (and tomorrow) leaving me time to do some of volunteer work, of course for today he was only promised the morning with the possibility of the afternoon. When Jon called this morning to see if the afternoon was a possibly, they said it wasn't. So there went my acupuncture appointment to deal with my sinuses. There went a day with a few hours to myself. Tomorrow I am meeting a Realtor at 10:30 to look at condos (not that we can buy anything with me unemployed), and then have a meeting at the art museum at 1:30 for the summer event I am working on, then I was supposed to get a pedicure at 3:30 (though it doesn't seem like a wise indulgence) and then yet ANOTHER meeting at the museum, and a first Thursday event. I also wanted to take my Zeta top to get altered (taken in a bit) but we will see how much it costs and what time I actually have.

At the same time I had some volunteer work to do. I didn't get to start working until 9 and finished around 11, which was good, but because I had to constantly entertain max (snacks! more Backyardigans!) I didn't get to focus like I would normally. I turned in a B+ instead of an A+ in my mind - because they had to make changes on the other end. As someone paranoid about perception (even if ts work I am doing FOR FREE) I am always worried that what I turn in isn't going to be good enough, the requests will dry up and there goes any chance of finding a job in this market (plus all those hours I have worked tirelessly for free to create a name for myself).

After I finished my volunteer work I took Max up to Tanner Springs Park (Marshall between 10th +11th aves) to see the new ducklings and splash in the water with Nathan. We stayed at Tanner springs for about an hour, then we headed home (with Fleur and Nathan in tow) to have some lunch. Its a GORGEOUS day outside, but Max has just been behaving so badly, whether its not listening to me or maybe he just isn't hearing me - which is making me short tempered. We couldn't go swimming because our cleaning lady was coming, so I figured get Max to nap. But after trying from 2-3:30 I gave up. It's now 4:15, with two hours until Jon comes home. My mood is terrible, Max's is mischievous. And the last thing I want to even deal with is making dinner but I have some avocados that need mashing so I think its going to be Taco night.

Tonight may be that night I go out to have a drink by myself with a book. Its days like this that I just feel so under appreciated. Really. I just wish SOMEONE would do something nice for me - sell me their green pelle dress, buy me a pedicure or even a cocktail. But I would be happy with Just 5 minutes of peace and quiet.