Im hot.
hotter than you
Actually, hotter than ANYONE.
You know why?
Cause I have TWO, count 'em TWO job interviews.
I had *hoped* for a phone call today to set up an interview... but never imagined spening my afternoon on phone interviews, and lining up personal interviews. Exciting stuff!
And, as I have learned my lesson about posting on my blog anything job related, I will not go into the details. Call me for those ;)
yup, its official
Im Hot
Monday, February 26, 2007
Saturday, February 24, 2007
A weekend post? WTF?
yup, I am posting on a Saturday. Who knew.
I have had some time to do a little bit of reflecting about all the shitty things that have happened to me this year....yup, it's all about me...and while I haven't really come to any conclusions about HOW everything is going to work out, I have come to the conclusion that I am going to MAKE it all work out. Make sense?
2006 is not going to be a year I forget, but more like a year I can attribute to my strength. I went through something extremely personal at the beginning of the year I may never fully recover from, at the same time I almost lost my twin brother. And only weeks after all that, I lost my first of two jobs. I honestly felt that I would not get through all of it. Do terrible things come in three's? They do to me! E's first lay-off came next, and then his second, shortly followed by my knee surgery and my Dad's sudden brain illness. I felt as though nothing more could possibly happen to us.
Now, two months into 2007 I have made the decision to STOP being a victim, and start making things HAPPEN! Good things, positive things, helpful things. And I can do it. Cause I don't quit. If 2006 has taught me anything, it has taught me that I am a fighter, that I don't give up, and that if I can survive all that without crumbling, there is nothing that I can't handle.
To those that have helped me along the way, I thank you. You all know who you are. Those special people that some days had an open year, other days had a voice to offer advice, and other days to bring me wine and wings when I have cried my eyes out. Those who keep their phone ringer on in case I needed them, who lent me their car and learned stick shift to drive mine. Those special people that have taken Sadie overnight to give us alone time, or have come over just to gab, drink, and smoke.... for no reason at all. And all of you who have written comments on here to motivate, pick me up, and make me feel special.
I couldn't have done all of this without you.
And I love you
OK...so now that your all crying....
Who wants to get shit faced ;)
I have had some time to do a little bit of reflecting about all the shitty things that have happened to me this year....yup, it's all about me...and while I haven't really come to any conclusions about HOW everything is going to work out, I have come to the conclusion that I am going to MAKE it all work out. Make sense?
2006 is not going to be a year I forget, but more like a year I can attribute to my strength. I went through something extremely personal at the beginning of the year I may never fully recover from, at the same time I almost lost my twin brother. And only weeks after all that, I lost my first of two jobs. I honestly felt that I would not get through all of it. Do terrible things come in three's? They do to me! E's first lay-off came next, and then his second, shortly followed by my knee surgery and my Dad's sudden brain illness. I felt as though nothing more could possibly happen to us.
Now, two months into 2007 I have made the decision to STOP being a victim, and start making things HAPPEN! Good things, positive things, helpful things. And I can do it. Cause I don't quit. If 2006 has taught me anything, it has taught me that I am a fighter, that I don't give up, and that if I can survive all that without crumbling, there is nothing that I can't handle.
To those that have helped me along the way, I thank you. You all know who you are. Those special people that some days had an open year, other days had a voice to offer advice, and other days to bring me wine and wings when I have cried my eyes out. Those who keep their phone ringer on in case I needed them, who lent me their car and learned stick shift to drive mine. Those special people that have taken Sadie overnight to give us alone time, or have come over just to gab, drink, and smoke.... for no reason at all. And all of you who have written comments on here to motivate, pick me up, and make me feel special.
I couldn't have done all of this without you.
And I love you
OK...so now that your all crying....
Who wants to get shit faced ;)
Friday, February 23, 2007
no title
I've had an interesting day.
I had a hot tub AND a nap. Who does that on a Friday afternoon?
Oh yeah,
the unemployed.
At first I was sad. Then annoyed. Then frustrated. I went through being angry, and now I am just bitter. (wow, a lot of emotions for only 2 days!) It appears that I wasn't wrong when I said everyone knew what was happening, and even perhaps for quite a bit of time, and I was left to smile like a fool until Wednesday afternoon. I feel like an idiot. I feel like a child. But most of all I feel like an embarrassed teenager chastised for being immature. *this is me accepting responsibility as best I can*
And folks, that's about all I am going to write about my being 'let go' from now on. It seems that a lot of people come and read my blog for ammunition against me...and it also appears I am good at giving it. I am, as I mentioned yesterday, not as careful about what I write as I thought I was. *It took me three times to write that sentence, does it seem like its not grammatically correct to you? Totally hypotheical, please dont comment, cause really, I am way to smart to make any dumb grammatical errors*
So this topic shall now remain closed. I am in no mood for emails, shit talking, sticking up for myself, editing, and re-editing anymore. I am truly exhausted from crying, worrying, and stressing. (and editing *wink*)
But on a side note.... I DID get to go hot tubbing AND nap today.
That truly is the highlight of my week :)
I had a hot tub AND a nap. Who does that on a Friday afternoon?
Oh yeah,
the unemployed.
At first I was sad. Then annoyed. Then frustrated. I went through being angry, and now I am just bitter. (wow, a lot of emotions for only 2 days!) It appears that I wasn't wrong when I said everyone knew what was happening, and even perhaps for quite a bit of time, and I was left to smile like a fool until Wednesday afternoon. I feel like an idiot. I feel like a child. But most of all I feel like an embarrassed teenager chastised for being immature. *this is me accepting responsibility as best I can*
And folks, that's about all I am going to write about my being 'let go' from now on. It seems that a lot of people come and read my blog for ammunition against me...and it also appears I am good at giving it. I am, as I mentioned yesterday, not as careful about what I write as I thought I was. *It took me three times to write that sentence, does it seem like its not grammatically correct to you? Totally hypotheical, please dont comment, cause really, I am way to smart to make any dumb grammatical errors*
So this topic shall now remain closed. I am in no mood for emails, shit talking, sticking up for myself, editing, and re-editing anymore. I am truly exhausted from crying, worrying, and stressing. (and editing *wink*)
But on a side note.... I DID get to go hot tubbing AND nap today.
That truly is the highlight of my week :)
Thursday, February 22, 2007
Fired?
I decided to edit this post for two reasons.
First....
Because after some thought this afternoon, I am slightly embarassed. But let me be clear in WHY I am embrassed...I am embarassed that I have a big mouth. I am embarassed that I tend to think people are maybe a little bit like me and have the same sense of humor as me. I am embarassed because I tend to write things strictly to make YOU laugh, not considering those people who may find my blog (ok, snoop) and might take it in a completely different way. I am embarassed that I write for the moment, instaedd of taking the time to edit, revise, re-write, and edit again.
Second...
I think I was fired because of my blog. (Or atleast contricbuted to it)
Basically, I am embarassed BECAUSE I think my blog contributed to me being 'let go'. And I should probably note that I wasn't really 'fired' as they are being gracious enought to offer me a weeks pay. When really, they are not obligated to pay me anything since I was only there for 7 months.
Ok... so again....I edited this post. And I am probably going to go back and edit some more older posts as well. As my anonymous poster has pointed out, this blog isnt as private as I think it is. (Actually, I KNOW its not private. My settings are what they are because I want them that way) But I will revert back to my first reason for being embarassed...that I sometimes forget people who read this dont read it the way I intend for it to be read. And well... that IS sort of my fault since I do have this set to public. I have to take responsibilty for what may happen because of what I write. And while being 'let go' shocks me.... it happened. I have to live with that. And I have to move on.
I could get all pissy and bitch and moan about the comment left, but really, what purpose would that serve for me? Well, other than make me look stupid, petty, and sad?
Bugger... I dont know what else to write.
Anyone hiring?
First....
Because after some thought this afternoon, I am slightly embarassed. But let me be clear in WHY I am embrassed...I am embarassed that I have a big mouth. I am embarassed that I tend to think people are maybe a little bit like me and have the same sense of humor as me. I am embarassed because I tend to write things strictly to make YOU laugh, not considering those people who may find my blog (ok, snoop) and might take it in a completely different way. I am embarassed that I write for the moment, instaedd of taking the time to edit, revise, re-write, and edit again.
Second...
I think I was fired because of my blog. (Or atleast contricbuted to it)
Basically, I am embarassed BECAUSE I think my blog contributed to me being 'let go'. And I should probably note that I wasn't really 'fired' as they are being gracious enought to offer me a weeks pay. When really, they are not obligated to pay me anything since I was only there for 7 months.
Ok... so again....I edited this post. And I am probably going to go back and edit some more older posts as well. As my anonymous poster has pointed out, this blog isnt as private as I think it is. (Actually, I KNOW its not private. My settings are what they are because I want them that way) But I will revert back to my first reason for being embarassed...that I sometimes forget people who read this dont read it the way I intend for it to be read. And well... that IS sort of my fault since I do have this set to public. I have to take responsibilty for what may happen because of what I write. And while being 'let go' shocks me.... it happened. I have to live with that. And I have to move on.
I could get all pissy and bitch and moan about the comment left, but really, what purpose would that serve for me? Well, other than make me look stupid, petty, and sad?
Bugger... I dont know what else to write.
Anyone hiring?
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
What a day
Anyone else feel like standing on their office building and popping peole off with a sawed-off hand gun?
You do?
OK, well I dont, and I think your crazy, POLICE!
I kid, I kid.
But in all honesty, today has been extremely frustrating on so many levels. Most of it I cant actually post here (LOL) cause all that respect of privacy bullshit... (ok, MY privacy!) but some of it I almost feel like I SHOULDN'T be venting about it.
Who is responsible for the tragic, miserable, shitty things in your life?
YOU ARE.
And I need to stop pretending its everyone elses fault. I am an enabler, I am the reason that things are not working, because I dont do anything about it. DO I sound angry? I hope so. Because I am so close to the point of actually losing it. I have tried, oh I have tried, to be supportive and understanding, and suck it up when things arent answered that I ask. To the point of actually making a joke out of it, because its the only thing I CAN do without getting upset. I have done MORE than my share, and its about time someone else steps up to the plate and puts an equal share into this. I am so struggling with how to bring any of this up, how to speak my mind without being degrading, or insulting, without embrassing. And for what? To keep things the same because I am too giving? I am too relenting? Because really..being nice and supportive doesnt seem to be working well for me. In fact... I think its causing it to be worse. Which is why I am accepting all the responsibilty. There isnt much time for me to take action either.... I am so scared of losing something so important to me...yet so frustrated that I AM NOT important enough to fight for. Am I? I dont feel it. I dont feel appreciated,. I dont feel RESPECTED, I dont feel LOVED. I feel taken advantage of
And that, my friends, is what scares me the most.
You do?
OK, well I dont, and I think your crazy, POLICE!
I kid, I kid.
But in all honesty, today has been extremely frustrating on so many levels. Most of it I cant actually post here (LOL) cause all that respect of privacy bullshit... (ok, MY privacy!) but some of it I almost feel like I SHOULDN'T be venting about it.
Who is responsible for the tragic, miserable, shitty things in your life?
YOU ARE.
And I need to stop pretending its everyone elses fault. I am an enabler, I am the reason that things are not working, because I dont do anything about it. DO I sound angry? I hope so. Because I am so close to the point of actually losing it. I have tried, oh I have tried, to be supportive and understanding, and suck it up when things arent answered that I ask. To the point of actually making a joke out of it, because its the only thing I CAN do without getting upset. I have done MORE than my share, and its about time someone else steps up to the plate and puts an equal share into this. I am so struggling with how to bring any of this up, how to speak my mind without being degrading, or insulting, without embrassing. And for what? To keep things the same because I am too giving? I am too relenting? Because really..being nice and supportive doesnt seem to be working well for me. In fact... I think its causing it to be worse. Which is why I am accepting all the responsibilty. There isnt much time for me to take action either.... I am so scared of losing something so important to me...yet so frustrated that I AM NOT important enough to fight for. Am I? I dont feel it. I dont feel appreciated,. I dont feel RESPECTED, I dont feel LOVED. I feel taken advantage of
And that, my friends, is what scares me the most.
Monday, February 19, 2007
*Beware shameless self promotion* (and totally embellished)
I absolutely rock. “TOOT, TOOT”
The undeniable gratification that one receives from successfully managing over 10 people at any given time is seriously like being high. Can you tell it was my first time?
Manager VIRGIN!!!
I cannot tell you enough how insanely PROUD I am for staying calm, collected, and professional, while I had many temporary staff approaching me to make all the decisions. I was important, I was THE BOSS, and I was AWESOME AT IT.
Seriously.
I really cannot write anymore than that on the subject. It is way to difficult to put down into words exactly how the two days at the VCEC went , except to say awesome.
Over and out
The undeniable gratification that one receives from successfully managing over 10 people at any given time is seriously like being high. Can you tell it was my first time?
Manager VIRGIN!!!
I cannot tell you enough how insanely PROUD I am for staying calm, collected, and professional, while I had many temporary staff approaching me to make all the decisions. I was important, I was THE BOSS, and I was AWESOME AT IT.
Seriously.
I really cannot write anymore than that on the subject. It is way to difficult to put down into words exactly how the two days at the VCEC went , except to say awesome.
Over and out
Friday, February 16, 2007
V-Day re-cap
I was due at the VCEC on Valentines Day at 6:30am. This did not allow for much mushy time. That morning, I woke up at 5:00 am and jumped in the shower. When I went back into the bedroom to change, E was nowhere in sight. I shrugged it off, thinking he was being sweet and making me coffee, and took the next 20 min to find clothes, put on my face, and clip up my hair. When I went downstairs, I was pleasantly surprised. E placed roses in a glass vase with red candy hearts, there was a dish of red and silver Hershey kisses, Valentines cupcakes, and a card. A card that I actually would have picked out. A black and white picture of a young boy and girl under an umbrella, with the words in side "Love is waiting in the rain for the sunshine". I almost cried.
Simple. Yet perfect.
Makes me feel TERRIBLE that I waited till today to purchase HIS gift. But as Trevor says... 50% off.
I was actually contemplating writing a whole post depicting my adventures at the Buildex show at the VCEC, and my superior skills at managing 10 Registration staff, and my utterly SUPERB professionalism and so and and so on... but really that sentence was enough wasn't it?
To be honest, I had a beer at lunch and I am slightly lightheaded, so typing is painful. You will actually get a post with all the details later cause i want to brag :)
Simple. Yet perfect.
Makes me feel TERRIBLE that I waited till today to purchase HIS gift. But as Trevor says... 50% off.
I was actually contemplating writing a whole post depicting my adventures at the Buildex show at the VCEC, and my superior skills at managing 10 Registration staff, and my utterly SUPERB professionalism and so and and so on... but really that sentence was enough wasn't it?
To be honest, I had a beer at lunch and I am slightly lightheaded, so typing is painful. You will actually get a post with all the details later cause i want to brag :)
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